Heehee I'm blogging from my new laptop =D

Anw I'm damn scared I will somehow screw up the laptop while trying to configure it =/ this is how noob i am with IT related stuff =( lots of things that need to be installed.... =(

2 assignments due today, 2 assignments down. it's another friday gone. I have a love-hate relationship with fridays....

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Sometimes I like to think that I am superwoman. I wish I could do without sleep, because i find that i am able to focus much better at night. like at this timing. 330am.

assignments are piling up like mad and i know it's my fault. but i'm really angsty lately so don't try.... kinda doubting my decision to do LMS, to come to uni at all. I knew i wasn't cut out for studying...

i feel like i needa have some alone time. no phone, no laptop. nothing. just me, myself and i.

SOMEBODY GIVE ME ONE TIGHT SLAP PLEASE.

I suck big time =(

And recess week is over. Spent the last of the recess weekday kbox-ing with a bunch of like minded people, followed by the worst horror movie ever aka the child's eye by rainie yang. I really wanna watch paranormal activity 2 though.

numerous deadlines to meet and projects to rush. and i am not doing anything at all. great job girl *pats self on back*

the only word that i can find to describe how i feel nowadays is this - overwhelmed.

I'm maxed out. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. How?

I'm only gonna break your heart.

So many things to do, so little time. I'm starting to feel the heat...........

So many things I wish I could tell you, if only you'd ask.

I can't express how fast time passes. Once again it's the 15th, and today will mark our 3years and 6 months together. A promise made but never fulfilled, long ago I've given up hope on it. Things are changing so fast baby, so fast that it's scary. So fast that I don't know what to say, how to say, when to say. I'm sorry for being really blank most of the time, for not being there enough. I'm sorry that I've been neglecting you, that all I can manage is just 2 hours to meet you on weekends. I'm so sorry, for not knowing what to say at all, not wanting to say anything at all.

I know we are on different paths right now, and it's hard. Hard to keep this going, hard to keep myself going. Sometimes I'm really tired, and all I want is just to take a break. All I want is to go back to those days.

I hope baby, that you know that I really didn't mean it. I hope you know that I'm really sorry. and I hope this is just a phase that I have to go through.

突然好想哭

It's 2 am and I'm alone at Canteen A. My 2 coursemates just left; studying here is so much better than studying in hall. Really like it here. I think I should do it more often, even though the walk back so late at night is a bit eerie and scary......

Mad chionging for 102 quiz tomorrow. Have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing at all, but thankfully Addison cleared up alot of queries and doubts and pointed me in the right direction.

Nights like this are awesome for studying, love this time alone. Would have been better if Macs is open though, hunger pang =(

Successfully elected into the 24th JCRC, but this only means my days will get busier =( Just next week alone I have 3 nights that's take up by JCRC events, and I have 2 quizzes which I totally haven't studied for, a german assignment and multiple writings due. Can only say I'm glad that recess week is coming, I need that time to catch up on my work... Whatever happened to my "I must work hard to get my first class honours GPA" spirit?

I foresee that there'd be no sleep tonight. It's 3.50am, my proj meeting started at 11pm. It still hasn't ended. Rushing for this stupid proposal that we have to hand in by 830am tomm. And i really pray I can wake up on time.

The head's spinning a little. Kinda losing my focus. At this point i must remind myself I never had much of it in the first place. Actually I don't really know what I'm supposed to look for, heck. Skipping the 130 lecture tomorrow so that i can come back and sleep. school life is really kinda screwed in this sense. sighs i miss the no work no school no worries days. life is about as sad as it can get right now.

it can happen to anyone of us

It's 730Am. My lesson's at 1130. I slept at 4. I have no freaking idea what I'm doing awake, except that I can't fall back into sleep.

Mum's operation has been scheduled. And truth be told, I'm not quite sure how I'll handle it when that day draws near... Keep me busy, keep me busy... Never felt that I need more time than now. I know I've never really expressed this, but I love you mummy. She remains the only one who can annoy me without ever trying.

Have always wanted to move over to my existing tumblr. I'm just lazy. Plain lazy. Actually i just cant bear to leave this space behind, but I guess it's time to do so. Just wondering, if i tumblr, can I be considered to be blogging everytime I post an update?

Things are making me depressed. Never felt like I needed a real friend more than now. But then thinking about it, I'm not quite sure where my real friends are.

But whatever, there's nothing I can't get through, nothing I can't overcome. Because like somebody, not quite sure who, once said that what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger. His is the time I feel like I should pray for strength to tide me over, but then again it was eons ago when I last went to church so I won't pretend.

I'm sure everything happens for a reason....

Had to email the prof twice today to reset the quiz for me because of some screw ups. Thankfully he was uber nice about it. Next week's gonna be a busy busy busy week.

The world's not all bright lights, rainbows and whatnot. There's this really dark side to it, a side so dark sometimes you miss it. It's like a black hole. You don't see it, but it's there. Setting things into motion, slowly sucking them in. It's a dark dark world. I don't like it one bit... It's time to suit up.

I miss the usuals, and my girls. Hopefully things will settle down soon enough, I need some me time.

I'm just a little crazy; a little emotional; a little sensitive; a little weird sometimes.

Have had this ongoing cough for 200 years already, and it's not getting any better. Eating food like KFC nasi lemak kinder bueno does not help at all, of course. Thanks to the many people around me reminding me and attempting to stop me from eating heaty food, even though I never listen. Like what's new, right. The only 2 things I've had so far are honey water and vitamin C pills today, thanks to some people. Okay, I shall promise myself that after tonight I'm just gonna eat food that's gonna be beneficial/neutral for my cough.

But then again, I don't do promises. Never did, never will. Because I know I will never keep them, so what's the point right.

I feel like a superwoman.

I'm doing so many things at once - my project; survey; having my dinner, and chatting on msn + FB. I probably shouldn't be doing the last 2 when I'm trying to do my work. But really, I dont give a damn. Really extremely tired, totally zoned out during lectures.

Most of the time I'm just feeling really empty inside. I have no idea what I'm supposed to be thinking, how I'm supposed to be feeling. And I don't like it, not one bit at all. Everything makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong.

With everything adding up, I don't think I can hold on much longer.

Maybe, I'm not a superwoman afterall.