This is how it's like, that feeling when I know that another series, another story has come to an end. Of course, I'm still a loyal Potter fan. (go Harry!) Vampires can never match up to wizards, the storyline at least. Totally anti-climax at the end. But still, Twilight is getting to me. Edward Cullen is.

and I wish I'd transform into a vampire, so that my heart would stop beating, so that I could stop hurting.

You know, everything you said today was probably true, and it's not like I havent thought about them before, perhaps even so much more than that. It's not like I haven't stopped myself falling deeper, but funny enough, I just can't. You're about the only person who knows me so damn well, and that's why I can't stand talking to you about my problems, because I know I'll probably cry my eyes out over smallest thing. That's like your superpower you know, I'm sure the girls would agree with me. hahahah.

Went to Jac's house today to study and of course nothing constructive was done. Attempted to conquer my fear of dogs, but of course, nothing was gone again. Still as scared and freaked out as ever. What nonsense.

i'm so close to retaining, even kicked out of school. help me =(

sometimes, i feel like i'm losing some of the more importants things in life. put it this way, i feel that i've already lost them.

Korea's fireworks display were much better than France's. Anyhow, I don't think I will be so stupid to go sit there and stone for like 5 hours again in the future.

what if i told you love is just a lie, and we've all been fooled into believing.

Something meaningful I fished out from my old posts of yesteryear.
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这时候， 想通了。

Life always has of screwing me up. I deserve to be shot for being who I am.

AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT IS A FREAKING HOLIDAY FOR US TO RELAX AND TAKE A BREAK YOU STUPID TEACHEEEERRRRRSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, i feel much better. relax kell, everything will work out. i hope. =(

i'm down with pretty bad flu and it sucks, i don't wanna fall sick on such a long holiday, i can hardly enjoy doing anything.

like how i didnt enjoy sitting at the merlion park for 5hrs today, just to watch like 10 minutes of fireworks. it could be the sun, the rain, or the crowd,because i used to enjoy it. it might be national day, but i was like in some foreign territory this evening. big crowd, plus the rain = 1/2 wet blanket. too many umbrellas, too many people. people just squeezed in and try to sit in that little little space in front of you as if they were miniscule in size. even the fireworks didnt seem so pretty today, some of it were hidden behind the thick cloud of smoke and all you can see is the illuminated smoke. is it human nature to stand up when everyone else does? refuse to sit down and block my view some more. to top it off, it's that time of the month (worse still, the first day) again and my temper aint the sweetest. thankfully i had boyfriend for company, whine a bit here and there, and his shoulders feels so comfy when im tired. dinner together with my mum after that, and he's on a quest to get into my mum's good book. movie tomm with mum boyfriend and sis, another chance for him. hahahahha.

something's bugging me, every morning when i wake up.

Happy 43rd birthday Singapore, i'm a proud citizen.

after manymanymanymany years of trying, i finally grew taller!!! by a pathetic centimetre, now standing pathetically at 156cm. or so the thingy says. it may not be accurate, afterall. =( it's still a comfort though. (:

my wonderful boyfriend.

=D