My table is so messy, I feel like crying.

Just came back from round island supper not too long ago. Am feeling full and sinful, too sinful to fall asleep. Not that I sleep early, anyway....

Lots of things going through my mind again. Work's piling, I just wanna cry.

Haven felt so miserable in 2000 years =( Late nights are really not my thing sighs.

back from hall's dnd. flashback 1960s was pretty awesome, i like the idea haha. anw i think i got the retro feel, so i'm quite happy about it. hall's dnd was much better than hss... -.- and lucky me won some lucky draw first prize =D

nothing's going right.

Did i mention i'm running for JCRC? I hope nobody else will run against me, or any of us for that matter.... I have no idea why, but the idea that an indian wanna run against me keeps popping up in my mind.

Hall's DnD's tomorrow. Flashback 1960s. I like the idea, pretty excited for it at this moment haha.

just the way you are, or so someone says. i like the idea. but, really?

the phone just rang, and all i hear is nothing good. i miss those days.

Going to school is like going to a mini flea market. Sighs, there's been stalls around the school selling clothes, accessories, bags, and stuff like that. So tempted to cut my class and just go shopping. but then my conscience bugs me zzzzzz sucks to have conscience, you know. Sometimes I wish i were heartless.... that way i don't have to feel anything, anything at all.

almost broke my bones today at cheerlead practice. i'd go through 100x of bball trainings with coach anytime.

okay kidding. it's pretty fun. and scary. and bone rattling. the sensation of being held by just the ankles while standing on 2 other guys palms was.... traumatizing omg =( i swear my entire life flashed past in that instant.

just got started on my phonics tut. honestly speaking, i don't really know what i'm supposed to do. "Transcribe those sounds" all i'm doing is entering the word in some online dictionary and copying the funny symbols that's enclosed in the brackets.

linguistics is really interesting but i have no idea what i'm doing in that course.

George Bernard Shaw, who was a critic of English spelling, once claimed that the word fish could just as well have been spelled ghoti, and proceeded to 'prove' it. Can you?

fuck it man how you want me answer this kinda question

unconfuse me.

这时候的我，超讨厌自己。
乱，心情真的很乱。

今天才发现，
其实我也放不下。
但，是习惯；还是爱
不放心； 还是不甘心
越听。。。越想哭。

给我一些时间，让我回来。
对不起，
是我。

Lately, I've been pretty confused myself too.

is currently getting my hair curled at home with my mum's help zzzzzz. HSS DnD later on but dont really feel like gg feeling like a fashion disaster =(

Am feeling extremely bloated and fat from the very late night supper I just had. Damn, hall life aint healthy. Just look at the time i'm blogging right now. Late nights, lotsa meals and very little exercise, not forgetting the no studying part =(

Block supper tonight followed by celebration for some of the september babies. of course what follows after is a trip to nanyang lake. i mean, a trip into nanyang lake. horus damn upz, all our freshies got dunked inside save for a couple who ran away hiding.......................

mad tired right now but im too full and fat to go sleep. having half the mind to skip tomorrow's 1 hr lecture.......

see what hall life is doing to me?! i nv used to skip lectures =( okay i was kidding i miss ponning lessons with yizhen like how we ran out of the lt and just convinced ourselves we're better off not attending the lectures anw.

and those days when i attitude ngchinchin like mad just because. sighs.

3years5months today, i'm not quite sure how much longer i can hold on.........................

I.... don't really know what to say.

Really.

a public declaration...
BECAUSE I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW HOW AWESOME YOU ARE! 


Hey my dearest Coach, 


I've so much to say to you right now, I can't wait till your birthday to post this up =D


First of all, Happy (early) Birthday! This brings to mind the video that we filmed for you on your 男人四十 birthday! We've been getting less and less original for your birthday each year, but you must know, we are all getting old you like you! As you age, we age as well haha. Time and age doesn't permit us to be as creative now, sighs. Thought that I should let you know there's no major plans for your birthday this year, but please know it's not because you are not in our hearts or whatsoever anymore, because I know you will think that way tsktsk. NTU and NUS doesn't go hand in hand together........ 


I really miss trainings with you. Especially so tonight. I miss those days you torture us like mad. With the damned timer. >( Double suicides in 70s?! 120balls in in 10 minutes?! 10 rounds around the school in 20mins?! 40+ ROUNDS AROUND THE FIELD AT 12PM?! Those were the only times I ever disliked you, ever hated being in the team, which in other words mean it was like every training haha. But all other time, I think i love you pretty much haha.


I know I haven't always talked to you, but it doesn't mean I don't listen when I do. You know why I don't like to talk to you?! Because you always, always have the power to make me cry like some baby after every serious talk. I still remember the birthday card you wrote for me a couple of years back. Tears fell like mad ='( The conversation on the car.... tsk. 


There's only one person I will truly call Coach, and that's you. I'm sure you know that(: You say that one day we will all alight from your bus. But I haven't, and I will not. I've just been sitting around the back of the bus silently, doing things my way. I won't ever get off the bus, I'll ride with you till the bus is old and rickety, till the bus breaks down or when you decide to throw me off the bus for overstaying haha. 


I hope you are happy doing whatever you are doing right now. =D No matter your decision, always know that I will, we will, support you wholeheartedly =D 


Happy birthday, Coach. =D


with all my love, 
#06!

I'm just really really tired lately.

Oh, it just hit me that HSS D&D is next friday. Theme is to go dressed as our favourite movie stars. Having this really random urge, but can I go as one of the Harry Potter's characters next friday?!

I don't really know what I'm doing with my life right now. 

I swear the weather has an attitude. This hot weather is making me sleepy yawns. German later on at 4 but i totally feel like skipping it, except I know I can't haha.

Linguistics is horrible omg, I'm totally regretting taking it but with this kinda mentality i'm never gonna do well at it. So, I love linguistics! It's cool to call myself a Linguist eh.

I'm really sleepy now i think i can doze of any moment. The bed next to me is like calling out to me. I can't decide whether to go home tonight or tomorrow =/ am just gonna stay the night to finish up my work so that i dont have to bring my books etc home.

that feeling, again.

time check: 4am.

it felt half good today jogging with eunice. Half because it was raining and we were doing stupid things like running in the rain, and it also felt like i didn't run alot so yeah. man do i miss trainings.

was reading some notes on bilingualism halfway when somone jio me for monopoly deal hahah i cannot take it those bunch of people is damn drama.nearly went for supper but then i was to lazy tsktsk.

okay great start to a new school year when the first thing i did was to forget about the make up tut that i was supposed to have.

lugged my barangbarang over from home this morning, sighs there's a few more items to be brought over.

heading out now zzz

man i lost weight again. actually i'm secretly happy about it. now it's not so secret anymore. gonna start my exercise regime next week, jogging with eunice tomm, balling on friday with some people, hopefully i'd be able to make a routine out of it. 

aw man i didn't get to buy my cutesy bedroom slippers =( i can't stand walking on my floor man.

what do you do when the world gets crazy?

it's not that i don't fucking care, but this is the only way i know to deal with my own fucking emotions, because somehow no one ever thinks that i will get upset.

it's as if i'm a machine, as if by default i should be happy.

sometimes it gets so fucking overwhelming, i really need a breather. 

fuck you life, fuck you. 

is back for the weekend. my mum just has to annoy me, doesnt she.

damn fucking annoying fuck man.

damn annoyed but i love the freedom. can't wait to move back to hall already zzzzzzz. anw slept at 5am this morning. supper last night after which returned to hall at 2 and then htht/talk crap session at eddy's aircon room felt like heaven man. only went back to slp at 5 and woke up arnd 11 plus for a lecture.

hall life's starting to sound a bit crazy but i'm absolutely genuinely determined to study extra hard just because...

the only way to feel better bout everything is to run away from it.

woots woots am in hall now! although my room is quite cui but i guess its still inhabitable. love my pink bedsheets  makes everything look 100x much better

enjoying a bowl of mango sago from god knows where courtesy of my room mate's boyfriend. had og dinner just now around our canteen area all and now a bunch of snrs are out clubbing. joint hall bash next tuesday, cant wait! or actually, i think i can wait haha. they're really nice to charter buses for us to and fro hahaha.

I TASTE FREEDOM AND I LOVEEEEEE IT! time to havoc!

I'm finally moving to hall tomorrow. but i don't really know what to bring so im effing annoyed. packing and all is sucha hassle i feel like staying home. except the naggings at home make me wanna get away.

this happens ever so often, life presents you with 2 choices and forces you to make a decision. but sometimes, you know you're not ready for anything, anything at all....