could have been better, but i am thankful. gonna put my heart and soul in, second chances dont come by easily. farewell to the world outside because i'm gonna be an anti social for these next 2 months. pls try not to tempt me by asking me out, i'd be grateful. if someone were to provide an incentive at the end of everything, itd make everything much better.

it starts tomorrow. till then, farewell.

take me away

Watched Butterfly Lovers today with aj girls like finallyyyyy. and OMG CHARLENE CHOI IS SOOOO CUTE. and i just fell in love with wuzun all over again, i can't believe i missed him when he came to promote the show last week =( I swear chun and ah sa makes the best couple ever. they're like so totally made for each i swearrrrr. the movie was not bad, the scenes with yu cheng qing were especially funny i just hate how they dub charlene's voice =( why is it that the rest of the cast get to use their original voice just now my charlene =( but it's okay i still love her. man i miss those days where i chase after all those idols ahahaha.

I LOVE YOU CHARLENE CHOI!!!!!
hahahaha.

Yay today's the day for submission of WR and it's such a heavy load of my chest. PW is such a bitch and wr is the most tedious of all. still got all the stupid individual components rahhh. wanna murder the one who first proposed such a thing crazy asses rah!

我明白我要的愛
會把我寵壞
像一個小孩只懂在你懷裡壞
你要的愛 不只是依賴
要像個大男孩 風吹又日曬
生活自由自在

too true.

Finally started watching hot shot today like after a few gazillion years. I can't decide who i like best in the show, but i'm pretty sure its not Chun. Jerry Yan is HOT. I'm almost sweating in front of the comp. Just almost. and luozhixiang is so retarded in the show. hahah. but then again, the show's not very realistic. how the hell do you take part in the state championships with just 5 players that form the main team? dont they get tired? i know i will, but maybe it's just me, weak. =( the show's help me reconnect with bball and rekindle my (ex)passion for it to a little extent. just a little. season's pushed forward next year, i can't decide if that's a good thing or a bad.

yea and i'm rewatching meteor garden all over again. my fave idol drama series of all time, seriously.

last christmas;

a baby girl arrives
and just like that...
everything changes.
the world gets bigger.
hearts grow fuller.
and life means more
because she's in it.

then i realise, we can never go back to the way we were.
because there's no way i can turn the dials or press rewind.
things change, you say.
they sure do.

what if one day, i just died?

happy 18th boy(:

YOU don't dictate what i do, HELLO? I have a life and you don't tell me what's my priorities. Go eat shit.

freaking pissed. (*&^*$^%#)*&)&**(^$^#@$%#!%()*_)(I

Since halloween is round the corner, so two nights ago at Hub's fairprice Xtra with boyfriend...



omg freaked out.

so cute ah the both of us. XD

14o8 (:

funny how i look the shortest tho I AM NOT.
can't imagine how life will be like, come next year.

trng's starting tomm and honestly, the thought of it really puts me off. it's becoming more of a chore than anything else.

The President's Star Charity. Charity shows like these always show clips of those more unfortunate people, no? These people, their lives are sad. It never hit me that hard until now. They didn't choose to live their lives this way, they didn't ask to be born with mental disabilities. But I had a choice, I had the chance to do what I should but no, I didn't. So what rights do I have to wallow in self pity when there's people who's less privileged than I am?

went out with coach eunice and clar today! lunched with coach first before eunice joined us and then going back aj to fetch clar. Vivo next, gloria jeans coffee then a bit of walking around. then it was on to the main highlight of the day- the henderson wave bridge. the walk, or hike i should say, there up mount faber was really tedious! havent exercised for so long and it was tiring for me =(( anyhow, for some funny reason we always took the longer route there! and guess what, that bridge was really really beautiful. really really high up too and it was really really scary. sat around for a while there jusr enjoying the view and the breeze and talking about everything. it was nice. i like reminiscing. it was nice doing it with them (: left after a while for bedok food market for the cheng tng and bbq stingray and hokkien mee and satay. and we were full and tired and we took a ride through the new tunnel home. a very long tunnel indeed!

charlenechoi totally sweeps me off my feet omgomgomg she's sooooo cute! she's the only one i'll turn les for. she has a new song with jj, totally sweet. i love you Charlene =D

Life was never easy, but someone up there (depending on your religion) just made it even more difficult for me. Thank you for your blessing, whoever you are.

I'll be okay.

a little bit longer, and i'll be fine.

OMFG tomm is bloody thursday and the whole class was basically freaking out today due to OP and the fact that today is wednesday and tomm is thursday its like so omg plssss.....

anyhow fifty dollars will be in my pocket tomm and that should make me a happy girl but i am not. cause im freaking scared and to a certain extent pretty irritated.

the police show ended but i dont like the ending. hmph.

i wanna run away and never return.

it was a bad day today, a fucking bad day and i dont think i can hold on much longer. who the fuck am i trying so hard for.

fuck yourself all of you, just go fuck yourself.

go and never come back.

ystd we were talking about heaven and hell, heaven sounds like a nice place to me.

My first big fat U.

what the fuck =(

i do miss balling actually, just that little bit.

and only because ive been tagged by ben to do this....

1) The person who tagged: benj

2) Your relationship with him/her is: platonic friends, classmates

3) Your five impressions of him/her:
1. gentlemanly
2. lame
3. pointless
4. durh
5. i'm so cute

4) The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: wait let me think... hmm.. still thinking..

5) The most memorable thing he/she had said to you: i hardly rmb what he says.. hmmm

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you will: he's like, afraid of boyf and thats so impossible

7) If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: when if becomes reality then say lah hor

8) If he/she become your enemy, you will: bang him down

9) If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: im cutest

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: help him overcome the irrational fear of boyf

11) Your overall impression of him/her is: like that lor

12) How you think people around you will feel about you?: oh so cute

13) The characteristics you love of yourself are: nothing much really

14) On the contrary, the characteristics you hate of yourself are: pretty much my low self esteem

15) The most ideal person you want to be is: happy who i am, to a certain extent...

16) For people who cares and likes you, say something to them: tell me who you are
17) Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you:this is in no order of anything.

nah.

**

on a more random note, i wanna rear fishes!

I'm so gonna be able to cook and bake like Nigella Lawson in the future. I'm so gonna be the Nigella Lawson of Asia. Come on ya'll, treat me nice and i'll feed you my famous cakes next time.

Had sandcastle building on thursday at ECP and went back again with boyfriend today to cycle and tan. Cycled for about an hour, would have been longer had the rate for the double bike been cheaper =( Though no intention to get wet or get any darker, I achieved both anyway. My forearms are now pretty much darker, I can never get fair i guess. And boyf tanned till he really looks like a red lobster on the run. I'm pretty red on the face as well.

Wow apes are pretty damn smart huh.

So went shopping with jac today and spent the entire day at bugis. Was pretty tempted actually to buy some clothes, but i really can't bring myself to spend that money. Walked so much today my legs are sore and aching =(

so there was this guy, a man in working clothes who obviously isnt some random ah beng, who was totally raising his voice at his girlfriend right in bugis junction. He must be at least 30, that son of a bitch. like hello? whatever gave you the rights to raise your voice at a woman like that? and so what if she's in the wrong? HELLO? whatever happened to men these days? and stupidly, the lady who was being scolded also did not do anything and just stood there and kept her mouth shut. USE YOUR BRAIN LAH. SLAP HIM AND WALK AWAY LADY. and the worst thing is, one kind hearted lady went forward to try to break the fight and that bloody jerk, that son of a bitch actually told her in the face to shut up go to hell and bitch. WHATEVER LAH JERK.

Oh, jac and i took some photos of us and of course of that sickening guy who will get into a bloody accident tomm you stupid idiot.

it hurts just to look back.

even the rain is echoing my mood now.