and... I actually cried.

am I bad?

because you girls mean more than a team to me already.
i miss all of you, alot.
i dont wish for any of you to be replaced,
because you all simply are irreplaceable.
there is only that one person i will call coach,
and you know who you are.
so...
can i just keep these memories to us?

i hate this feeling like i've let the whole world down.

help.

How. What to do.

ODAC, bball?

I donno.

9.1.08

Lessons today were pretty slack. The only subject with any real teaching was Econs that seems like a rather fun subject at the moment... Had 3 lessons out of the 6 periods today, so I was pretty free for 3 seperate hours and did some wandering around and guess what, I found the lecturing theatres! XD I guess tomorrow would be pretty much the same, with 3 out of 6 periods free for me and 1 out of 3 periods that I have to attend used for some kinda briefing. I hpoe life stays like this forever XD H1 Geog seems pretty slack compared to H2 geog, in terms of the number of topics we have to cover.. Thankfully, the only physical geog topic that we are covering is something that I've alr learnt back in the upper secondary school days. Which can be said to be a load off my back since I only have to freshen up my memory and actually pay attention. And if I enjoy econs, that'd be great because it actually means I may do well in that subject... Aint that great, I have half of my future planned out already.

Going NYP open house this coming thursday.. For what, to eat the canteen food. And considering whether to go for TP's. But most of the open houses are like on the same days so it's pretty packed. But anyhow, I think I'm pretty much sticking to JC (fickle minded, i know.) since according to AJ's P, "Keep the end in mind". Since Uni is where I wanna go, let's just take the shortest way out.

7.1.08

If i ever decide to stay on in JC, I'd remain at aj. It's not that bad, really. Putting the old campus aside, the j2s all seem really nice and its near my house. Anw, i never like changes. Aj is not that bad lah, we have our own rap which according to my ogl aj is the only sch with a rap okay. come on, go spread the aj word.

5.1.08

After 3 days, the orientation finally ended. Not that I want it to end of course. Come monday will be classes again =/ And of course I'll miss my clanmates. Haha, we are one bunch of crazy people! seriousssssly. I so wanna be an OGL for second orientation.

4.1.08

because "From this moment on" by Shania Twain and Bryan Adams (White?) is such a beautiful song, I swear it's so gonna be my wedding piece ( you know, the music that plays when the bride walks in the chapel ) when i get married. And people, please remind me if I ever forget that or decide to change the music because that song will be so god-damn long in a decade's time.

Seriously, check that song out even though it's already a decade old. maybe it's because i'm in love. anyhow, go listen to it. and listen to it again when you're in love. it becomes much more beautiful all of a sudden.

All we need is just the two of us.

2.1.08

i'm true.

Rah I wasn't even getting excited or looking forward to school or having the pre-school jitters so why the hell could I not get to sleep last night. Like, the whole night.

Okay, so the orientation wasn't so boring, but it wasn't very fun either. For JC standards it wasn't any good at all, actually. But I guess the interaction was not bad. Had about like, 15 more new friends or something. Oh and it's so cool to be addressed as J1 students now. I'm unofficially 17! Let's start counting down, about 9 more weeks to my birthday! Yayness right, I know.

My OG mates are pretty friendly and crazy, especially the boys. But I guess we all still click pretty well. Talkable, at least.

And what subject conbinations should I choose? Physics, geog or econs? H1 or H2? Rah. I think I'll stick with my choices and so some experimenting first. Go Kell go!

And tell me who's campfire ends at 8pm huh. Haha.

2.1.08

and baby i'm afraid.

Does anyone realise there's something wrong with my blog? Haha..

What a new year. 2007 didn't end well for neither did 2008 started well. Woke up with a sore throat on the last day of the year, and then it developed into a fever and my sore throat got so bad it hurts when I talk =( So the whole night I was pretty much not talking. I swear I'm so not gonna be going for countdowns in town when I'm not feeling well. It's so damn terrible to be squeezed and pushed around. Hotel rooms next year, anyone?

Got a lift home from Jeryl's sister's friend. =D Pretty much felt like puking on the car alr, and that was what I did the first thing when I reached home. Anyhow, the fireworks didn't seem as spectacular as the Fireworks Festival ones. Or maybe it was just me in my sickly state. Hmmm. Speaking of Singapore Fireworks Festival, I can't wait for the 2008 one =D

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!
May 2008 be a wonderful year for you and I =D

1.1.08

Paladin, Calidore. Oh well. Bless me then.

29.12.07

Haha super kanchiong waiting for AJ to call. Hopefully 19 is where i go =/

And I'm having this urge, this burning desire to cut my hair! But I know I'll probably regret it later. Oh well, I'll see how on monday.

I'm feeling emo right now. How?

Somebody tell me how many days till school reopen? I don't even have a pair of shoes to go to school in =( Where's my panda shoes!?

I'm tired, tired, tired... Worried, worried, worried... Rah, rah, rah...

I remember I wanted to blog about something, but what is that something, I forgot. Let's try to recall... Ah nevermind. Haha...

Went out for Christmas dinner with mum and boyfriend. Seeing that my sis' not in town and there's nobody else to accompany her, I decided to be nice instead! Haha, and as usual my mum was trying to be funny and lame. Okay maybe she was funny to a certain extent XD

And school's starting in like... how many more days? Exactly one week away. That thought puts me off so much. Like serioussssly. And imagine if I have no friends =( I hate making new friends and going to a new environment. Like damn =(

and I thank God for having you in my life.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL! (:

Enjoy yourself this jolly season, before another school year starts yet again =(

Can't find the feel to update recently.



Anw, BBQ the other night with the APS peeps was pretty okay except that it was really far off from mac and all. Rained a bit, maybe more than that and had to get the fire started again. Reached home pretty late that night, pretty tired but it was pretty fun.



And finally our long planned, long awaited surprise for ngbaoxian was carried out yest after weeks of postponing. A trip to the zoo! The zoo's changed alot, I must say. Lots of fun monkey-ing around, tired walking and rewalking the same places trying to get to the others. And also, lots of places under renovation. Not as stinky as before, and some animals were seriously so damn cute. They were all very well trained... Is that animal abuse?? Haha..

有时候，哭过，睡过，就没事了。

Wah wah i wore a dress today! Pretty uncomfortable at first, but then after that it was okay. Only my shoes were giving me problems. 2 more weeks till school reopens, sickening.. rah.

i fake a smile so he won't see

OMFG. I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF NOW. LIKE SERIOUSLY. GUESS WHAT, I JUST FOUND MY DAMN EZ LINK CARD IN THE BLOODY STOREROOM. HOW THE HELL DID IT ENDED UP THERE, HOW WOULD I KNOW. AND I WASTED THIRTY BLOODY DOLLARS FOR NOTHING. OMGOMGOMGOMG OMGGGGGG. OH WELL, WHO CAN I BLAME. BUT WHY LET ME FIND THE CARD, MY HEART HURTS NOW =(

on a sidenote, anyone who wishes to contribute to the Kellie Fund may contact me. Okay, just kidding.

WAHPIANG I GO BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL ALR.

OMG I HAVE THIS SICKENING FEELING I DID REALLY BAD FOR O'S. I KEEP FEELING THAT I SCREWED UP MY ENGLISH. OMG IM DAMN SCARED. OMGOMG I KNOW I WONT DO WELL. WTFFFFFFF!

I decided that since Christmas is just round the corner, I should take time out to update my WANTS list. Everybody, feel free to take your pick XD

HAHA.

My second experience at shooting star-gazing was a fruitful one! Caught about, a couple dozen of meteors and this super brilliant, blue-ish meteor that i don't quite know how to put it into words how it looks. But it was really, really brilliant. That said, the meteor shower wasnt quite wat i expected.. the meteors didnt come in showers but one by one.. so reached east coast round 8 odd, rented a nike for the entire night and cycled and cycled and cycled to look for a suitable spot to watch the sky. finally found one, and its wasnt long before we saw our first meteor at ten odd.. so it was staring and staring for the entire night, which truth be told really does get boring especially when the shooting stars is like a few per hour that kind. but then came this really, really brilliant thing that could have been an asteroid, with this flaming blue head and a whitish tail and really, really spectacular. pretty shagged aft tt, headed to mac for super early bf at 430am which is my only meal of the day so far.. either or, it was fun... to a certain extent..

SHOULD I CUT MY HAIR.

SHORT?

should i be happy? I dont wanna be a no lifer =( where's my friends!?

am i wrong?

HEY,

FUCK LIFE.

FUCK YOU LIFE.

WHY IS MY LIFE SO DAMN FUCKED UP?

I'm such a worrier.

Been going out with jac pretty much this few days, it aint good. Cause she makes me wanna shop! And I really, really feel like shopping now. I think I should order more mac so that I stand more chances to win that 10 000 dollars. Oh i need money to shop and to make my ez link, anybody wanna contribute to my fund?

I lost my ez link card again o.O like omg. unnecessary money to waste. and 3 more weeks to sch reopen, only 3 more weeks. and i'm hungry.

why do i sense that this is gonna be a disappointing month even though it's just started. haha girl, it's time to get used to disappointment.

Hello am back from shopping after the whole day out with Jac. Meant to get some presents for some people but shopped for ourselves anyway. So the arty girl brought me to arty MAAD, Market for Artists And Designers. That place is oh-so-cool, everything looks so damn cute and nice i feel like buying everything. Anyhow, bought something cute for my new-cousin-to-be, the girls and for Baox. Went to town to walk and walk again, saw this pair of handpainted shoes and i regret not buying it. Oh damn, nevermind i'll ask the arty jac to handpaint one pair for me, yahoo. if only i was that arty =(

OMG it's December alr. Like omg, omg. The year's about to end. Anyway, been thinking that it's kinda scary how much people can change. Did I mention I hate changes? Sadly change is the only constant in the world. and it's about to change again, in a months time? anw ive got a 208 horoscope book from CAB. let's see how much of this is accurate.