I'M SO EXCITED FOR SENTOSA ON THURSDAY WITH THE USUALS!!!

Good weather pls!!!

many things happened, not good at all. i just hope, everything will be okay in the end.

sometimes i really just wanna be alone in this world, no restrictions, none at all.
sometimes i really just wanna stay 18, enjoy life the way it should be.
sometimes, this time, i really wanna grow up, grow up and live my life the way i want it.

It was a dream come true. Literally.

Now I can go bang my head and go eat shit.

What the fuck.

i'm always on his mind, see.

it's a joke!!!!

OMG singapore has 3 new cases of h1n1. this is so scary. please let it stop!

快乐，不快乐。


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I know recently my blogposts, my facebook, are full of weird comments and such. Nothing's happen, everything's fine so no worries, okay. And I'm thankful to know that there's many friends around me who cares.

But when I say nothing's happen and everything's fine, I mean it. Even if something's happen, it doesn't mean I have to report to anyone. When I say nothing, it means I dont wanna talk about it and that's that. I appreciate all of your concern, but seriously, it's irritating. So stop probing. If I want to, I'll bring the matter up even before you'll have any chance to ask. So please, get the hint and stop asking.

Seriously.

my sasa says hi!

i love how easy i forget all the bad things when i'm with friends who matter.

sometimes nothing feels right, and i really really really wanna give up.

andyeswearegettingmarried.iloveyoucharlenechoi.

I wish I was in New York right now, I really wanna take part in Improeverywhere's MP3 experiment =(

anw jerry yan is damnnnnn cute pls.

I'll name my daughters Cadence & Shauna. Doesn't it sound nice? (:

Took early leave from school with ben yesterday at 845. Had my temp taken at the polyclinic only to be sent off to the quarantined area at 38.1degrees, so exciting. This must be the fastest trip to the clinic, was done within like, 15 minutes? Anyhow, the doc took my temp, 38.7degrees, prescribed me Iburoprofan because i am allergic to paracetamol, which I found that I am also allergic to due to my extremely swollen eyes. And they are still swollen now, so ugly. Fever peaked at 40.2degree last night, boyf insisted that I go see the doc and take a jab because obviously i have no medicine to take, but mum says that it's okay and helped me massage to dispel the heat in my body lol and made me some chinese herb thing to drink. Finally irritated my mum enough to bring me to the doc, i really dont want brain damage you know. On the way out, i vomitted 4 or 5 times along the corridor, at the stairwell, in the lift, at the void deck. Aww. Ran home immediately because my shit was coming out and i was in great, great pain. SO much so I had to bang my head against the wall when i was shitting because my stomach was hurting to much. I was sweating so much i could have filled a bottle haha. Went to my bed straight away and tried to slp, woke up a couple of times in the middle of the night and took my temp again, still at 40degrees. Much better now, but still having slight fever. It's not fun at all.

Oh, anw, boyf and mum quarreled. Man.

once in a while, thoughts linger.

I WANNA EAT DURIAN NOWWWWW.

I wish I could turn back time. Damn. I cant let go.

I'm really proud of them for fighting so hard today(: I was never still throughout the 4 quarters, my heart nearly dropped out towards the second half. A last shot at literally the last second that secured us the win by a single point, scenes you'll only see in a exaggerated movie or comic books, but it happened anyway. Tears of joy, too emotional. It was really too emotional seeing the guys sweating their guts out on the court, and their tears that followed thereafter. It was very sweet of them, simple as it may be, but the card and chocolates that they gave us really brought tears to my eyes. Before season I was hoping for it be to over, looking forward to training-free days. But now, maybe not so much. How I miss that feeling on court, calling set plays and just going for the basket. Training with the girls, under coach. Tha laughters and the jokes were never ending. The feel of putting a ball thru the hoop. So many, so much. There seems to be this void in my heart, cheesy as it may sound. Still upset, still sore. Not showing doesnt mean I'm not. It'd have been a different matter if we really lacked the ability to do so, but no we didn't. Because we might have, we could have, we should have. It'd have been so much more. And then there'd be no regrets.

I miss you girls, I miss trainings, I miss balling.
the joy of balling.

I need to get life back on track. I want to study, but I am not doing anything. Work is piling, it's almost as tall as I am, not very tall i know. I need to organise my notes, my file, and a place for me to sit down and study. Maybe my comp should crash like tomorrow, so I won't have a comp to use all the way till after A's and hopefully emerge with 5A's and a B on my cert.

What, aim for the moon what, so at least i'll fall on the stars.

I really need a new comp and/or a new laptop.

Anyone wanna sponsor?