Somebody please tell me why I'm home on New Year's eve. Oh that's right, I'm having major flu and sore throat now with a fever and feeling heavy headed at the same time. Why does this seem to happen every year? This is damn sad, spending the last day of 09 feeling like rubbish at home. Is this the last day of the decade? I think so. So this is how i'm gonna spend it. And i think i will puke ltr, feeling like it. and I cant find the bloody thermometer. this is crap. The One up there is either telling me that I havent had a good year in 2009, or that I will have a lousy year ahead. I hope it's the former of course. half of the usuals are in town now. i really want to be there. i hope none of you are having fun!!! okay wait this is damn sore.

I hope all of you are having fun! =D I've got no new year resolutions, because i never stick to it anyway. I just hope that the year ahead will be a better year than the last and that I can make t to a uni and the course I want. my mum just mentioned that my eyes are swollen, thanks for reminding.

Happy new year all of you! (:

your love; it feels different.

Today is both a happy day and a sad day. I'll tell you why.

As I was about to pour the water from the tank out because my fishes were acting all weird, a teeny tiny guppy fry zoomed past in front of my eyes (as if to tell me, "don't pour me away!")!!! Yes one of my guppy's given birth, though i don't know which one. The sad thing is, there's only one fry, an d it's common sense that guppies dont give birth to just one fry. That means, all my other fry were eaten up by the rest of the fishes =(( but thankfully the gravel are the same colour as th e fry, at least one survived. At first I was unsure if they were pregnant or there's some funny disease going on cause almost all of them look fat around the tummy. Now that there's one fry, I know I have at least 5 pregnant guppies ! I don't know if this should be a cause for celebration because very obviously my tank can't handle that many. To protect the little one, i've scooped it out into the little container that yizhen gave for Christmas XD i don't have anything else to put it in, i gotta buy some plants and another tank tomorrow so that my fry dont get eaten up again! I predict I'm gonna have some more fry in the next couple of days!


Spot my baby guppy, can you?
But, i donno what to feed it?

As usual it was a bunch of fun and laughter with the usuals' for our Christmas get-together over at Benj's. Gift exchange was hilarious, and mahjong was simply downright unlucky. Anw, the last trn had already left when we reached cck station. tsk. cabbed to khatib with charlene and lichu, and then cabbed home alone from there, only to find out that last trn to amk is still available at khatib. waste my money sia. and we're meeting up on newyear's eve as well, though there isnt any plans yet. still, i'm excited.

and, the little thing i made for you ppl looked better in my imagination. oh well, i'm just not that kinda artsy person.

my fishes are doing well, forever hungry so i'm forever feeding them. i should stop that behaviour because they'll die as a result of overfeeding. AND FISHES ARE NOT LOUSY/POINTLESS OKAYYYYY. they hone my patience and calms me down when i sit there and stare at them for one hour lol.

Tis' the most boring Christms ever in recent memory. It doesn't feel like Christmas at all. Anw, I didn't spend Eve alone. Worked for halfday yesterday, during which only a little work was done because I'm so efficient all that's supposed to be done have already been completed. So for about, 2 hours I surfed yahoo answers on Guppies. Yes my fishys are doing fine. Swimming around looking like they're freaking happy being stuck in a tank. I wonder if this is abuse. But at least none of my guppies died. Boyf's did, about 50 of them. and more are dying each day. Anw, spent the eve at dy's house, like again. With the same people. Doing the same things. Indian poker, circle of death and drinks. Next year should be something different, I hope.

2010 is coming. Like wow. But I don't think I can make it to uni. and the thought is making me very very depressed.

I hate life.

I have a tankful of guppies now! I swear there's at least 2000 guppies at liming's house. All types, sizes and ages. Anw his parents are really nice people and they sent me dy and boyf home =D boyf's keeping guppies too, but his tank is so big i'm sure he can fit more inside. I'm hoping for some blue tailed guppies because they're really pretty, I've got a couple of slightly blueish ones but most are the normal orangey ones. There's this guppy that looks like it has a birth defect, the body is slightly crooked and another one with a tail that looks like it just came out from some battle lol, poor things. You know, I actually feel bad eating ikan bilis now,tsktsk. Oh, liming's mum started out with 3 pregnant fish and now they hve so many. I have a few tens of it, maybe I'll dry the fry and serve it to all of you next time haha.

I shop at Daiso everyday after work. I'm beginning to feel more and more like an ahsoh, I seem to have a reason to buy anything and everything at Daiso. Just today, I bought an ornament for my fish tank. You know, one of those figures on Easter Island. And a packet of snacks. And some stuffs to make a lil' gift for the usuals for Christmas since we are having a gathering this sat at ben's house. Looking forward! =D

I think boyf's going back to msia later, so hopefully i won't spend Christmas alone.

I have a new fish tank and 2 catfish inside! I'm so happy. I'm gonna go daiso tomorrow to grab a few ornaments to decorate my empty fish tank. and, liming has so many guppies, he's gonna give about THREE HUNDRED guppies to me and boyfriend. boyf's gonna keep 250 since he has a much larger tank and i'm gonna keep 50. but i don't think my fish tank can handle 50?!

I typed a post on my iPod last night but i couldn't find the publish button! >(

Anw, work is okay i guess. Kinda boring, but at least its repetitive so i get the hang of it easily. That's what makes it boring actually, but then i learn new thing everyday so who cares. We work in the pantry, and they have this cool vending machine where you don't have to pay for the drinks! you just press the button, and out comes the drink of your choice. okay you have to pay 20c for soft drinks but still.

thanks darling jac for the survival pack on my first day of work, even though there's only 2biscuits inside! HAHA. but that's so sweet anw. (:

AND. jeryl is gonna work at uss too. BUT. BUT. BUT. she's performers escort. I'M SO ANGRY. GRRRRRRRRGH.

I'm starting work tomorrow! It's at harbourfront centre though, hopefully i won't be late. and i'd wanna meet jac for lunch too if possible. finally, a source of income even if it's only gonna be for a while. and i should be working till late tomorrow. it's okay, i hav lotsa time to spare. more work= more money so that works out fine for me.

and i want a sony vaio too. come on, who wanna lend me credit card so that i can pay for it interest free? be nice people. be nice to me.

oh, and i think i'll be spending a lonely christmas this year. boyfriend's off to msia but who needs boyfriends on christmas right. i haven done any christmas shopping either. and dont think im about to start unless there's a gathering of some sort. this looks set to be the saddest christmas in a long long time.

2years8months baby(:
loveyou manymany but no hamsters please thank you haha.

the management at USS transferred me to start work on 25th jan. >( that means i'll be unemployed during this period of time. WHO WANNA EMPLOY ME HUH HUH HUH.

ME NEED MONEY.

i should have told them no so that i can go with yiz!

in the morning after a night staying up.
3am, cui.
post prom at clinic.
this girl damn tall pls. and i was wearing heels still.
kinda red after drinking some vodka.

CLUB!!!


syafiq gatecrashed! as did alot other people.
a shot of people at our table.

the photos are not in order because i have no idea how to use macbook lol.

Irvin tan. HAPPY 18TH DUDE!
Yue Sheng.
Zi Hui. Old time friend from primary school(:
PROM KING! Lim Ming Han.
Erika.
Boyfriend.

On Zen.
Clarissa chua.
AJ basketball, but not all were present though.
此地无银三百两！
Wei Xian. DAMN TALL PLEASE IM WEARING HEEELS LAH.
Charlene Liew.
Chen Jiahong.
Darren Lee.

Last night was a night of many intimate first times.

My first prom. My first clubbing experience. My first time chilling out in a hotel with friends. OKay maybe not so many first times lah.

Anw, preparation for prom SUCKS. Hate that part. Prom itself was okay i guess. Like what other people said, alot of phototaking. Of course the highlight of the night was PROM KING hahahahaha. Minghan was like a changed person up on stage, totally unexpected. Hahaha the best was making fun of him the entire nigh after that. Don't think you prom king you can say me okay!

And yesterday was damn laokui please. Finally convinced the girls to go clubbing with me. Being virgin clubbers, we were all damn suaku. We didn't even know where the q starts. In Zouk, "This is not zouk lah!" shout damn loud some more. Damn laokui. Anw i drank quite a bit at Zouk. Left to go back to our hotel at clarke quay, but me erika and charlene slipped to Arena lol. Ladies' night, free flow of drinks. Being kiasu singaporeans of course we had to have a few drinks. I think I'm kinda allergic to alcohol, i have photos to prove. Squatting down in the middle of Clarke Quay cradling your own head and "I can't see, I can't see" is super laokui. Not drunk i swear, just giddy to the point my vision damn blur and there's the ringing sound in my ears. Oh and promking jeremy and carine brought me make to the hotel, haha. Thank for offering to piggyback, king. The heels hurt so much i walked barefooted =(

Stayed up the entire night with the usuals playing some drinking games. and we got complained by some lousy people at 4am hahah. But it was fun, i like cosy gatherings like that. I think we should have more of such things. Back to hotel to slp at 6am, and checked out at 12 with darren king wimala yiz and me left.

Actly i don't really feel like coming home. But i feel like coming home, get what i mean. Since i needed to shit, so here i am.

Prom sucks. No, the preparation sucks. And my mother with her inputs and forcing me to do things her way makes everything 100x more worse.

KBoxed today with the usuals. Fun, and awkward lol.

But im not really in the mood to elaborate.

Feeling too damn shingz.

Will be working at universal studio Singapore with yiz pam and erika! Can you tell I'm very excited haha. I hope it's fun! And jiwei and one of her friend will be working too haha.

YAYNESS! Damn boomz sia.

OMG i want a tattoo =(

I hope I have enough courage to get one soon.

behind my neck or my waist?

=DD

the random bout of flu has evolved into a nasty sore throat tsk.

and a fever.

anw, i really cant wait to start working. I just need to find a job lol.

其实心里有很多说不出口的想念。

让我回到过去，好吗。

回中华打球去吧。

having this random bout of flu bleah.

im wasting my life away i cant wait to get a job and earn some MONEYYYYYYY.

last week i didnt have any job offers. now i have a few. but all of them are very farrrrr away.

I NEED A JOB!!!

anw, went prom shopping (yes again) with my top grade spare tyre today, my darling jac ;) tsktsk, she's such a spendthrift. actually if i had the money, i'd buy manymanymany stuff too. but well i dont. THATS WHY I NEED A JOB.

i have a pretty gob job lobang from yuting (twin from faraway land), but it requires a sacrifice. money or boyf. money or boyf. money or boyf. hmmmmmmmm. it's a freaking $9/hr!!! but... i'm not prepared to give up my saturdays =(

and i didnt shit today, so i feel dirty. you know, i must shit everyday if not i have this very dirty, very unhealthy feeling and it makes me feel very uneasy. but i didnt shit today. i think im slightly constipated nowadays. damn,

LIFE SUXXXX. how?