说不出口的难过

说好的幸福呢？

in the worst of times, sometimes all i can do is to make life a little better for myself and all others around.

hakuna matata, to all of you.
because, everything will be okay in the end.

anw, i put on weight from the week before to last week, and from last week to this week. at this rate im gg im gonna be a fat pig by As.

天啊.

i have half a mind to quit school now. actually many minds. and i think i wanna change my blog to some other server because its damn irritating. but its too much of a hassle telling everyone ive changed url. oh whatever.

i've only just realised how chio the lg crystal is.

i want a new phone.

what do you do, when words fail you.

i'm wasting every single typing this. but i cant help myself. someone tell me why im doing all these when all i wannadoin the future is to marry rich old man. hah. anw blogger and fb's both screwed up.on my comp at least.

hit delete, someone.

i'm afraid of death, of dying. i know people, or person to be more specific, who've attempted suicide before.

twice.

i really don't understand, please explain to me.

because, everything will be okay in the end.

i want to cry.

28 months together, that makes it 2 years and 4months. pretty long huh. many more to go,i hope(: and boyf was nice today. pretending like we were taking part in the amazing race, running to hub together -.- okay but it was fun. but to boyf, sometimes im fat, sometimes im skinny. i say he's forever fat. haha.

sometimes i wish i were virtual. hit the delete button and there i go, disappear off the face of the world. life aint easy, you know.

the big guy up there should just bless me with superhuman wisdom and some dilligence. and maybe a heart that's void of any emotions as well. im pretty tired.how often have i said this, but sadly life doesnt work that way.

and some people think they're pretty damn witty by being sarcastic. you wanna do it that way, i'll entertain you. fine by me. and, fyi,i dont really care if you read this.

ohmytian leeminho is only 22 this year, 4 years older only. i still got hope! must fight on come this dec im flying off to korea to get married to my fantasy boyfriend already. and he's a cancer, im a pisces. its a total matchmade in heaven!!!!! altho chun is nearer to singapore,i think i'd prefer lee min ho though both have pretty much the same physique and both looks gorgeous. he's my sababy's baby so i wont touch him. heeheeheeheeeheee. bid me farewell for im gg to korea tonight.

here i comeeeeeeeee.

oh and,yoon ji hoo in BOF just makes me totally swoon over him. give me a guy who'll always be there to protect me too.

there's shooting stars tonight. i rmb how 2 years ago dy and a bunch of us went to camp at east coast to see some falling stars. caught some really awesome ones. aw how i miss those days. a pity its not the hols now zzzz,so i think i'd be better of in bed dreaming of my meteor garden stars.

leeminhoooooo.

omg i totally melt when lee min ho gives that mischievious cheeky smile!

like how an icecream melts on a hot day i just totally nua away when he smiles.

i swear he's my new fantasy boyfriend. say byebye to chun.

I never get to watch the NDP live every year, not fair.

This year was a deviation from the past two years, I didn't go down to wait my the Merlion for the fireworks at 2pm. What to do, A levels, but its not like I did anything productive at home anyway. I don't think there's the annual Singapore fireworks thing this year too, sad.

aww im watching BOF now and my heart is all fluttery. i want my prince charming as well. come on volunteer yourself if you're rich romantic funny and looks like one of those guys from BOF, Jerry yan or chun.

best if you're charlenechoi. i love my sababy.

Alright, I'm hungry. didn't eat alot at the boyf's house because they used chopsticks to eat. I know how to use chopsticks properly, i just dont know how to use it to eat rice you know. so to prevent myself from looking like a fool, i ate only rice and minimal vege. lol. now im hungry. and i wanna eat prata. and that indian biscuit thing. and i want acash.

studyung tomm at the lib with oqx and tkb. hope it's gonna be productive.

In a showdown betweenmy sababy and the boyf, who will win?

okay i miss japan alot zzz. regretting not having spent my time well enough there. zzzz.

i want go taiwan hongkong japan aust us europe who want sponsor me come come.

dreamt of my sababy last night, wanted to take a picture with her but her manager refuses to let her do it !!!! i miss her =((((