what happens if i let you down?

good, but never good enough.

school officially starts this week, this sucks. it amazes me how it's alr gonna be september already like wow. going school later on even though i have no lessons today, i really really need help with my time table thing sighs.  i dont even know what i should take. actually i really wanna take like korean or something they say first sem is important =(

i sound like a midget now omg. major phlegm problem plus a really itchy throat. thankfully i have ppg from andy...  it helps, for a while.

sunburnt, scalp peeling and an annoying voice. sighs, this is not the ideal way to start school.........

SP night was fun.

I totally have no voice now. =(

AND NO SCHOOL IS STARTING........!

max emo now.

I am officially an NTU student. =D =D =D

Just broke camp from Camp Cristine at 12am, seriously. Thankfully there was a senior who stayed around my area and sent me home hee. I havent slept in more than 24 hours, because we were busy coming up with something for the performance and then htht for the last 3 hours of our precious sleeping time. Hall 4's FOC camp is very different from HSS FOC, the culture is extremey different but nice all the same. the number of seniors i have for my og can make up one og on its own alr, but one thing im ultra impressed about is the welfare for the freshies during the H4 FOC, damn upz. If HSS FOC is a diet camp, then is the camp for us to put on weight. Seniors all paid alot to buy supper and stuff for us haha.

For some reason today i just lost my voice suddenly. I can hardly speak now and my throat feels really empty and itchy =( i think i talk too much =/ many of the seniors in camp seem to know who i am!? anw i kena punk'd by the seniors last night. was brought to one side telling me that there will be a hokkien debate later on in the evening, because we are hokkien hall. felt so cheated man. >(

i currently only have 13 AUs, my time table's pretty relaxed. So far, i have no lessons on monday. 2 hr on tuesday, 4hrs on wed and 3 hrs each on thursday and fri. i'll have to take some more mods during the add drop period. ultra reluctant, really dont want any changes to my wonderful timetable =(

even though we broke camp but its not really over yet. we're having our SP night at ntu alumni house tomm evening. see, i say hall4 welfare damn upz one.

Aww clarence chew is out =( he played brilliantly still, i like. he's actually really quite cute, haha.

watching singapore cubs play. on the losing side but still, good game spirit. the haitians are like feeling the after effects of the earthquake from last year, they keep falling and hugging their legs, i believe that's called diving. good job cubs, singapore 2050 waiting for you alright. haha.

prawning with zephyrs today ended up with our basket of 3 prawns missing half way hahaha. i havent packed for hall camp =(

sighs im upset the fairer complexion i've achieved after staying from the sun for almost a year has disappeared after one ay in the sun =((((((((((((((((((((

somehow i think that people who's not staying in hall are missing out on a great part of uni life. up till now i can say i really like uni life. but then again school hasn't started so i might hate school lah. but isn't this always the case, you love school, the friends part, the bumming around part, just not the studying part. anw looking at my seniors i'm very motivated to work towards my first class honours gpa hahaha.

met up with tim and ziting and ziyan today. prawning with zephyrs tomm hahaha. i dont want this part of life to end =(((

Today I was a NUS chem engine student at one of their movie event thingy. Step up 3 basically has no storyline, but the dance moves are awesome.

THIS is damn hilarious pls go watch it. the vid of the senior whose bday falls on one of our camp days.



and this because this is my hall's production.

right now i'm feeling good about my hall. actually im super excited to join them whoohoo. makes me so dont wanna switch hall. even with all those horror stories that were shared by seniors just now zzzzzzz

according to www.funkygrad.com and seniors hall 4 is most well known for spooky incidents. wow, thanks alot people.

it gets harder and harder keeping it up every single day.

sometimes, i don't really know what to say at all.

L4D with zephyrs+mel then dinner at prata house with zephyrs. shit man this og is mad love. we're all going crazy. fly kite+dinner tomm with the same bunch, then jackson managed to hook us up with some nus deals so we're watching step up 3 on thursday. damn onz.

my appetite has been really lousy lately and it feels like sucha watse of money eating =((

anw. hall 14, hall 10, hall 16, hall 4. cries=(

just came back from supper not too long ago with half the zephyrs. really last minute jio-ing, so the fact that 10 people turned up was pretty nice. dinner with them tomorrow, and might be joining them for l4d in the aftnn. and then kite flying/picnic at barrage on wednesday. yes goh jo-lin, i get what you mean when you say just wait till i go focs lol.

still upset that i havent received any calls from hall 4 =( trying my best to switch to hall 14, hopefully. BECAUSE CHARLENELIEW is there. actually i know quite a number of people from 14. my og alr has 4 people. plus dixonchern and charleneliew. and some other random people.

woots woots. i should snap myself out of this whole foc thing because it is so not healthy tsk.

anw boyf is gg to tw for 3 weeks, i donno if i should call that a good thing =/

lots of things on my mind these couple of days. sometimes i really wanna chop my head off just so i dont have to think about them anymore. sighs.

Still suffering from post camp withdrawal syndrome. Symptoms include sunburnt, uneven tan, and constantly feeling tired. And more obviously, randomly laughing at nothing because you suddenly remember something funny that happened in the camp, feeling restless when there's nothing to do because in camp there's always something to do.

Oh boy oh boy. I can't wait for hall life.

heeheeheehee.

Still feeling damn cui after a night's sleep. I feel like I haven't properly rested enough sighs. Sunburnt and peeling, those dark and lighter parts make me look like I don't bathe properly. Karma sia. Flu and sore throat from all the senseless screamings and lack of sleep.

Memorable experiences -

SP night. The talking to your SP while blindfolded part. My SP who's an SA damn fail. Got him the first question i asked.

me: how old are you?
sp: 22
me: so you're an SA
sp: eh no i twenty....one

something like that. all the things he said contradicts and i was hahaing away. then came the 7wonders part and lots of eavesdropping by the programmers so i was waving my arms around while talking. considering that the pairing was totally random, i must say i was pretty lucky huh.

after the SPs left only the programmers were there, was asked to guess who they were and then people said damien. someone asked how does damien looked like, and by instinct i blurted out "pleasantly plump". and for that i was remembered as the pleasantly plump girl lol.

on sp night after a day at sentosa, dressed in smart casual outfit we were bus-ed to bedok reservoir (how romantic). damn laokui, the giant hershey's bar that i bought was all out of shape and melted shit man paiseh to the max. thing to note: nv buy chocolates as SP gift. kept joking that my traffic light was green for that night haha. wei ren shuo with jonathan after that was funny.

amazing race was all over singapore. from nsrcc to tanah merah to bedok to orchard to bishan to city hall to novena to jurong. at orchard was tasked to find 5 people to kiss 5 of us on the cheeks among some other tasks. automatically targeted ang mohs. at bishan, to make the programmers happier, was told to run from one end of the interchange to where they were while raising our arms shouting "wo em si siao eh" which is i'm not crazy lol. then all of us were told to put both hands on the wall and scream, "help help! the wall is falling down!" lol max. just so happens that the station masters were the pleasantly plump guy and the tall and skinny guy lol. they found out on sp night i was the one so auto target me to dance around mr pleasantly plump. lol

htht at changi airport was awesome. all throughout camp there were htht sessions. one night we were there htht-ing feeling ultra shag, then i looked at the time to see that it was 330am when we had to wake up at 7. that same night had bad gastric too =( random htht sessions at random places with random people. awesome. jackson's impersonation of melvyn was major funny really couldnt take it.

i broke out in rash after playing some game where we had to slide across a mat of soya sauce + chili + oyster sauce and donno what else. broke out in rash when my arms were smeared with kaya aka initiation into hss haha. sensitive skin, so for the rest of the dirty games, like leopard crawling across some other concoctions and having your head washed with soya sauce and chili, i sat out. was kinda thankful for that hahah.

fright night. even though we were the fifth pair but we waited quite a long while. almost fell asleep. so super shagged that i swayed while standing. thought i'd feel pretty freaked out, but i was too shagged to feel anything. my partner who was a sa was being gentlemanly and all, so it was all good. another htht with melvyn the punk sa on the bus. punk because he has a nose ring long hair and a tatt that says DON'T PANIC on his back. according to him it came from hitchhiker's guide to galaxy which is his fave book or sth. his birthday happened to fall on the second day of camp, so that night he dozed off while we were htht-ing and some snr produced a cake. we surrounded him and started out singing and then someone sang right in his ears his reaction was priceless man. lol max.

another htht session in daron's car with xiaofeng (hall 6 pres). he wished he'd known us earlier. i wish so too. then i could have been in hall 6 or hall 14 right. heeeeeeee.

finally back from a 5 day HSS FOC, that was fast. the camp was great fun, even though the games weren't as hiong as some other camps but it suited me just fine since im humjikia lol. awesome group, awesome group mates and most importantly, awesome OGLs/SAs.

damn jialat, my eyes kept straying, i feel damn bad lol. anw i think i'd really like uni life and hall life, sounds like hell lot of fun. love the people, love the culture. glad i belong to HSS =D

total number of hours of slp in 5 days = the total number of hours of slp one should get in a day, i look and feel cui max now lol. changi airport to chill and talk for 5 hours then dinner after breaking camp was plain mad lol. 

sighs which i knew these people earlier. if i did, one of them might have been able to rec me into their hall. like hall 14. not because charlene liew is there but because my good looking cute sp belongs to hall 14 =( i'm stuck in some lousy hall 4 that according to what i've heard is some cui hall.

fright night on friday 13th and the forth day of hungry ghost festival was.... lousy lol. alot other people screamed but i was probably too shagged to feel any fear plus my partner was being gentlemanly and constantly looking out for me. eg auto switching sides with me so that i dont walk right next to the windows and he got freaked out instead hahahaha. anw he's the upcoming vice president of hall 14 and the roomie of my sp. so the entire night i was gg "wei ren shuo..." because that's my cute sp's name and to annoy them hahahaha.

anw another of my SAs is the president of hall 6. so worried about not being chosen for hall camp that he helped me call hall 4's president to tell him about me lol.

this post is not flowing nicely because i'm so mad tired my train of thoughts is just a random string of things i remember from the camp. actually i dont really know what i'm talking about also.

I'm gonna have a pet Maltese soon. Very soon.

I'm scared of dogs. And cats. And fishes. And bunnies. And hamsters. Everything else that moves on its own.

How?

I'm moving out! To boon lay, Hall of Residence 4 - the house of Ohmers (??!!!!!!). I'm half excited, but i don't really wanna be sharing room with anybody else zzzz so who knows i might move back after 2 months haha. but anw it's near HSS and NBS, unlike charleneliew's hall thats like god knows where hahaha. I hope i get into hall camp =( hall 4's camp start on the 23rd so no clashes there. i cant wait for hss foc too!

did i mention i wanna join cheerlead.

exciting news to share! Charlene may be coming down to Singapore for Jade and Pearl promotion! Though nothing is confirmed and its only hearsay, it makes me happy nonetheless. i hope if she really does come down, i'll be able to get a picture with her and fulfill my lifetime goal lol. and if there's stage games i'd run up the stage unlike last year (yes yiz just kill me now) where i missed this super good chance of interacting with her >( *slaps self*

Just had another major vomit episode plus diarrhea in the toilet. For some reason, I always feel major giddy to the point that I can't see whenever that happens :( the worst thing was, mum made me clear up my own mess while I was agonizing away on the toilet bowl, breaking out in cold sweat. :( Hate it when I feel unwell :( sometimes I wish I'd jus drop dead in the midst of all that pain so that I won't have to go through such rubbish again, sighs. Hopefully none of these rubbish happens again :(

Some things I wanna do but never really got down to doing it either because i'm plain lazy, not time, and some other lousy excuses that i always find for myself.

1. Learn how to cook
2. Learn how to bake
3. Learn how to swim
4. Go taiwan/hk/korea
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okay actually there's alot more but i'm too lazy to continue -.- shit im one big lazy ass omgosh.

my rash is getting much better after my mum massaged my legs for me yesterday, yay. woke up at 10 this morning, and now im really tired zzzzzzzzzzzz.

welcome to AMK benj! 

sighs im not sure if i applied for hall correctly, apparently there's supposed to be a hardcopy to hand in as well =( anw assuming that all things are in order, im not sure if i should sign up for hall camp =( it starts on 16 aug, while hss foc ends only on 14 aug, and ends 27/28 august which is a freaking 2 weeks =( and then school starts on aug 30, even though its just orientation week but still.


where's my man!?

nvm show you my charlenebaby first and binbin.

i really wanna make the world a better place.
or at least, make myself feel better about the world.

oh, i forgot to wish JK Rowling and Harry Potter a happy birthday too. rowling turns 45, and harry would have turned 30 if he was real.

no wait, he's real.

avada kedavra!

其实我只需要像项羽平这样的男人就好了


I hate idol drama cause they make me fantasize like mad and then get upset after that because I realise i can never get someone like him =( they make me so unrealistic =(

where's my chun and/or jerry yan?