the initial ecstasy from receiving the phone call has dissipated. and i'm feeling so miserable, i can't even explain myself.

anw supposed to be off tomorrow but i'm hauled back to work because some china media is dropping by and apparently i'm the only one qualified enough to speak proper chinese, others who can will not be around. i will be filmed, recorded, and be shown on tv in china. but my flu+sore throat+cough+phlegm is not okay yet and now im having swollen eyes due to the lack of sleep since i worked afternoon last night and had to be at rws by 830am this morning thanks to the big A and the L and B and the never mind... how am i supposed to look good on tv tomorrow, i dont even sound good =(( im hoping some director will spot me and decide that i'm suitable for any role in his movie/tv series at all and come look for me hahaha. actually i have this secret wish to be an actress/star then i can be friends with my baby. actually i just wanna be her assistant. im willing to be cow and horse for her. and my spelling sucks ttm now i donno how im gonna write the freaking essay or whatever it is. im thinking of leaving work after the media thing but its like super bad cause i left early today also hahaha.

anw i have this strong urge to cry and be angry at everything omg can somebody tell me what's wrong with me.
and like what the fuck i cant fucking upload pictures on fb what the fucking hell..........................

sorry i just needa let that out.

just a random photo to share from work hahaha. i love high end =D anw many more stores opening in central zone soon and it'll be part of us there's much to do for uncle tong already.

the reason for this long and senseless post is due to the fact that i cant seem to find anyone to talk to.
bleahhh i miss boyfrienddddddddd. i think i need more boyfriends so i wont miss the only one i have. agree?